am suddenly hit by this unsettling wave of... something. i dont know, its just a really weird feeling that's irritating the shit outta me. maybe i just realised that despite this whole month being called holidays, i haven't done much to make it worthwhile and memorable. ive barely been out, and i havent done anything that ive planned on doing. that blows.
whats more, I MISS MY GIRLS. yes that sounds cheesy. but yes i do. i havent seen them all in ages, some i havent spoken to in a long time. but my hyperactive jam jar of a mind is always thinking about something, someone even if i dont want to think of the person. see, this is what happens when you're a tad bit too lifeless for your own good. words cant describe what goes on in my mind, but all i can say is that it makes me want to go out even more. it makes me want to be free, even more. and i know i wont ever be able to obtain that amount of freedom, ever. unless i get married and move out. okay fine slight exaggeration but still.
i miss so many people.
i miss having a life.
ive got chem tmr and my jam jar spilled all its contents. i no longer know anything. whoopdeedoo, sometimes i love myself so much its unbearable.
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